I'm officially Missing You.
Dope song. Happen to receive a message. Woke me up yawns.






Just decided to post random photos here. Look this is my cutie cousin. He has grown up quite a bit now.


My Cutie Pie.
Aww. Don't he make you wanna a baby too?hahaz. He's cute when he ties up his hair. He will grow up to have a pretty face i guess. Woohoo.hehez.




Happen to be tagged in a few Waacker's photos.
Wednesday's nights is lonely from then.
No more Waackin Practises. No more rehearsals.
All the diva-people hahaz.




All the old acting young.hahaz.
Without makeup that day. But i still look kinda. You know.
Wild/ah lian wadever. Sadded.LOLX.



Last day of school before the term break.
Miss Nga was behind me.
Alvin was joking that he was my boyfriend.
For a moment Miss Nga was like. Err.. I sympathize you or something.lolx.




The aftermath of the molesting session.
Xianling and Elaine stopped touching our butts so we decided to chill.
And just take photos hahaz.
Was wearing that shirt i borrowed. Its still with me though lolx.




Entry Stickers
Bus trip was awesome but super long.





Tagged!
Stupid camera ran out of battery.
Most of the photos of me are in other people's camera lo. hehez.







Alrights i finally hypnotized myself.
So i am going to persuade myself to sleep now.
Yawns.
Goodnight baby.

Phone running out of battery again.
Wonder when i will ever remember to charge my phone.hahaz.

Gotta go yo.
Take care.


P.S. I don't wanan play that part. Spread my wings and fly away.

Labels: I don't wanna think about you so much

You’re everything I thought you never were
And nothing like I thought you could’ve been
But still you live inside of me
So tell me how is that?

You’re the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I’d love to not forgive
And though you break my heart, you’re the only one
And though there are times when I hate you
Cause I can’t erase
The times that you hurt me
And put tears on my face
And even now while I hate you
It pains me to say
I know I’ll be there at the end of the day

I don’t wanna be without you baby
I don’t want a broken heart
Don’t wanna take a breath with out you baby
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way no no
I don’t want a broken heart
And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl...No...No
No broken-hearted girl
I’m no broken-hearted girl

Something that I feel I need to say
But up to now I’ve always been afraid
That you would never come around
And still I want to put this out
You say you’ve got the most respect for me
But sometimes I feel you’re not deserving me
And still you’re in my heart
But you’re the only one and yes
There are times when I hate you
But I don’t complain
Cause I’ve been afraid that you would've walk away
Oh but now I don’t hate you
I’m happy to say
That I will be there at the end of the day

Now I’m at a place I thought I’d never be…Oooo
I’m living in a world that’s all about you and me…yeah
Ain't gotta be afraid my broken heart is free
To spread my wings and fly away
Away With you
yeah yeah yeah, ohh ohh ohh


I love this song. Xin and min love this song too.
The lyrics describe a typical girl's feelings i guess.
Don't wanna be a broken hearted girl.
So true.

I wanted to rot at home as i said but mum started nagging again.
I just wanted to get out of the house asap once she started.
My ah ma cooked lots of delicious food today.
There's Tang Yuan too. Woohoo. The farmilar taste that brings back my childhood memories.
Ate dinner over at her place.

Meet up with my friend.
Went to woodlands and North point to grab some stuffs.
Heart to heart talks after so long.

Just received Min's message.
Looking forward for my Christmas celebrations.
Its just another ordinary day but its extraordinary when you spend it with the one you loved.
With all these people whom i care around me.
I am satisfied.
Happiness. Smile.

Love changes people.
Really?
That's what others are telling me.
Guess it will appear on xin's post someday hahaz.

I gotta work tml.

I just wanna enjoy every moment i spend with the people i love deeply.
Honestly i can't imagine life without these friends by my side.
Then i'll have no one to share my deepest secrets. hahaz.

I dunno how to answer some questions.
It might be hard to guess what i'm thinking at times.
I know. I'm sorry.
That's coz i've always been strong in front of people.
Always the cheerful and happy upbeat yEw zHeN.
But all people have lots of sides of them.
I can't always be that Jayne or zhen all the time in front of everyone.
I don't know how to express certain things or my feelings at times.
I'm serious.

Maybe coz i've always been forced to be that way.

Did i i tell you xin told me Jasmine said that i looked like a independent gerl?
Hahaz. Not the first time. Even Elaine and Xian Ling feels that way.
Not the only people who felt so.

But i just wanna say.
Even the independent girl needs a break at times yeah. woohoo.

Sherry said i looked better nowadays.
She said Fiza felt there' something different about me.
Really?hahaz.

You can't hide your happiness. I guess.

Its just that the closer you get,the more happiness you feel.
The deeper it is.
The more afraid you will be.

Took me so long to move on after you.
I don't wanna try again.
Listening to all the stories around me.

P.S. Because you're in my heart.

Labels: I know that i love you

曾經流過的淚 濕了傷口就讓 陽光曬乾而褪

发现你爱的人到处跑
昨晚刚升职 今天被炒
莫名其妙 谁会知道
是不是上天开的玩笑

地震时 你想和谁拥抱
什么是生命中的美好
轻易放掉 却不知道
幸福就在下一个转角

The beat goes on 時間它一直走 就像是Life goes on 這過程或許痛

不管顺流或逆流 你总得抬起头
让我们一起走 走过艰难和困惑
任性的时间却不肯停止转动


Heyo! JJ's new album's song is super nice.
Love these 3 particular song- 加油 , 背对背拥抱 and 转动.
Its been a while since i like to listen to slow songs.
Nowadays i seem to be listening to a lot of clubbing music.
That's what my friends tell me.
Humms.. i just find the beat nice. Groovy hehez.
Listening to these songs now while lying down on my bed.
Resting. Yawns. I just feel like rotting at home somehow.

19.12.2009.
Wanna know the meaning of blue roses?
Blue roses exist in fantasy but not in nature.
"To some a blue rose symbolizes "mystery"
And to others "attaining the impossible".

A blue rose given can symbolize the rarity of your partner.
You have attained the impossible."
They are believed to be able to grant the owner youth or grant wishes.
Blue roses also convey inner feelings of love at first sight.
Being enchanted by something or someone.

This mystery of the blue rose makes it perfect for those with a complex personality or that crush that seems just out of reach.


My Pretty Blue Rose and my Portable Piggie!
I was super bored so i decided to take lots of photos of my dear WZ.
I was waiting for the bathroom yo. lolx.
Waited for like an hour? So i just go on and on helping WZ to take photos *LAUGHS*


Wen zhen fell down worx. Aww~


Say Cheese! Woohoo.

























Alrights. Worked for these 2 days.
Meet up with xin and went to my ah ma's house last night.
Gathering with your darlings and relatives is great.
I really cherish Fsome.

Its the time of the month.
Hurts a little.
Just feel like catching up all the dramas at home woohoo.
Except for the fact that we still have to meet up for projects like almost everyday.

People always talk to me about their problems.
Hoping i could give them advice.
Some says i looked like i am super experienced.
Well.. i'm not yo. lolx
But when a girl falls in love she'll become a fool too hahaz.

Stupid me.
Teared.

2nd time shedding tears in front of you.
Stop it babe.
Never happened before.

You're not that kinda gerl who will do that.
So stop it. Hush.

Don't wanna show that side of me in front of others.
Be strong.

Met Sherry and Elaine in the same train lo.
Fated to love them huhs?! LOLX.

We discussed our AM project at Pastamania with Sean.
Was supposed to go to school but we decided that we shall go somewhere else last min.

I just wish i could be together with the people i cared forever.
Until the day i die. hahaz.
People are always walking in and out of your life.

I've once heard that when god give you someone/something in your life, he will make you lose someone/something in exchange.

Wonder if its true.


P.S. Close my eyes and feel your mind. Tonight i feel close to you.

Labels: 加油

Coz when the roof came in and the truth came out i just don't know what to do.
Watcha say.
What did she say?

Felt guilty. Words unspoken.
What goes around comes around.
Don't know what to say but sorry.
Move on.

19.12.09
19th's my birth date.
Used to love the number 11.
Guessed its time for a change.

Worked yesterday.
Kinda tired. Auriel and i were super bored.
Always encounter customers trying to flirt with you.
Especially those in the twenties. hahaz.
Desperate and disgusting stalkers home.
Auriel was super brave to just shove him away.
Fierce worx but effective lolx.

I remember telling Sherry the stalker story and her telling me the ghostly encounter we had at W5 when we film. Super spine chilling. Woah.
Caused her to be a little scared to go back to the chalet alone lolx. oops.

Walked in the rain after work.
Damn cold. Woohoo.
Was late. oops.
Xin and Jasmine was at Bugis too.
Both of them getting more and more pretty le worx.
I shall try to do something about myself too lolx.

Watched couple retreat.
Super cool Eden island for your honeymoon.
I guess i will go on the other side to party if i were there hahaz.
Except for the mass grinding part.
Nice music and hot guys. hahaz.

Its only when you lose someone or on the verge of breaking up that you will realize how important he is to you. Trying to save your relationships and marriage.

The theme of the movie? Hold on to the fated one?
Even if you have ten thousand problems between the both of you.
You made a promise to each other. That's why you got married.
Venture out and fling around but at the end of the day.
Probably you gotta ask yourself who is the one you can't get rid out of your mind.

I felt like i am doing my film analysis again. Oops.

Ate steam boat.
I remember going there with Fsome years back before linh fly back to Vietnam.
The unglam girls cam whoring and heart to heart conversations day.

It wasn't exactly a romantic day.
But definitely a happy and memorable day.

I shouldn't expect too much.
That's what i have been telling myself all these while.
Built a barrier coz you're afraid.
But you made me start to feel less afraid.

I'm glad i thought it was a prank.
If not we wouldn't have met.

Come to think of it.
Why do it always start with a prank humms.

Alrights. I gotta go.
Need to go get changed for work.

It doesn't matter what others are looking forward to see.
Voices telling you to break up.

Who are you to try and rule my world.
Hush.

Work babe.




P.S. I could stay my life in this sweet surrender.

Labels: I don't wanna miss a thing

Yesterday's indoor stadium's trip was tiring.
MIA for the whole night.
I think i have to learn to not be missing for too long.
Project meeting @ City Hall was as usual you know. hahaz.
Humms..

Ate Aston's with min and xin.
Brought some bling bling stuffs woohoo.

So tired.
I'm gonna sleep now yo.
I've got work tomorrow.
Been waiting for a important call.

Good night!
Its amazing. Random. Its been a month.

Spending your christmas with your loved ones will be great.
I'm gonna have 3 celebrations with 3 groups of friends worx.
Super broke.
Sighs.

I should just marry a rich guy. Supported by Sherry. hahaz.
Her and her anti-relationship view lolx.
But i do agree yo.

Don't you think sleeping beside the one you love its so sweet.
Aww~
Envy.
Xin said she envied when she read the blog.

Its good to be ordinary.
As long as we stay true.

Sweet dreams people.
Yawns.
But i can't sleep eh. hahaz.
Somehow.

Labels: I'll be waiting

Warning!
Its time for my Zi-Lian pictures.
If you don't wish to see my face please just ignore this post hahaz.
I've warned you. Hahaz.





I took lots of pictures coz of the make-up.
Wanted to check if its pretty hehez.
I redo it like twice? Touched up here and there.
With/Without Fake eyelashes. Bling eyeshadows.
Blue or Black eye shadow etc.
If you are observant enough you would spot the difference lolx.
My hair as well. Touched up like twice?

After the full dress rehearsal my hair and make-up is like woah.
Beautiful Disaster lolx.
Evidence:


Messy Hair!





Thanks to Samuel for his professionalism.
He helped me styled my hair again after the rehearsal and woohoo.
Here are my perms again.hehez.















Super bored while waiting for the rest to put on their make-up and do their hair.
I was ready super early coz Veron and Samuel helped me with my hair.
The blue shadows and fake lashes were done with the help of the 2 Mel. hehez
So i took even more photos of myself.









I love my perms.
Sherry said i look hotter with them.
Rachel said i suit perms.
Xin said i look great. Woohoo.
They can't say i look ugly in them too isn't?! LOLX.
Got the temptations to perm it permanently but its hard to take care eh.


















The photos below is me without fake eye lashes.
Smaller eyes yo. lolx. Obviously. hahaz.
I feel better without the eye lashes though.



I love RP's facilities.
Their stage and side wings are so much bigger than SP's Convention Centre.
They even have waiting room for all the performers.
Each item has our own waiting room with beautiful mirrors.
Each room has a LCD screen to watch what's happening live on the stage itself.






Poor Singapore Polytechnic. *sighs*
The stage got a lot of depth.
Their lightings are also damn dope.
Its a pity no photography is allowed there.
So i can't take pictures to show you how dope their stage is.







P.S. At least some say i looked more like mixed blood that day not a Malay. lolx

Alrights enough of the " Glam" me backstage.
Time for more unglam photos hahaz.
Took a lot of days to upload these pictures.


Don't faints k.
Yesh. I am in my secondary school uniform.
Its for the mini skit we did for our EMP presentation.
I stayed over at XianLing's place the night before.
We did the " Its My Life" card for the campaign lolx.
We had a great laugh coz of the panda paws. *inside joke* hahaz.



Anyway my classmates kept saying i must be a ah lian in school last time.
I swear i am not okays. Min,Xin and Linh should know.
I am super nerd back then.
Look at my high socks and long skirts. woohoo.
Except for my hair colour now but yeap i am a good student k! *laughs*



Except for the part where people kept starring at us for acting young during breaks.
I had fun wearing back my old uniform.
Reminds me of the days i meet up with Fsome under my block.
Going to school together. Being punished together.
Doing jumping jets for being late for Mr.Ramesh and Mr Goh's class.
Standing in front of the whole school just coz we were caught sitting at the playground chi chatting. They called it loitering lolx.
Cutting quees during recess.
Walking to the basketball court and past classes on purpose just to see our eye candy hahaz.
Miss those times.


I find sherry's ezlink really cute.
She rather use a bear face then her face.
Kinda look like her anyway. LOLX. Just kidding ..*laughs*
She should be enjoying her party now.
Meeting for projects later.

Introducing my Wen Zhen!
She's super cute can! So many people loved her.
Elaine always plays with her.
Damn sad. They like her more than Jayne. *laughs* hahaz.
Its okay. She's my baby. Oi Oi.



My Elaine Tan Shu Yi.
The Rah Rah Gerl in our clique.
Neber fail to crap with me.lolx.




My Sherry Ong Hui Ying!
The efficient and future career woman.
I think she got a lot of similarities as me lo.
Except for the part whereby i am super man.






My Tan XianLing.
The cheerful girl but the one hwo always squeezes our butts.
Reminds me of our pervert catching games in class.hahaz.
Elaine and her always corrupt Sherry and I worx.
Especially at that specific MacDonald we had our discussions.
Here's her cutie bear bear that Jia hui gave. Aww. So sweet.









Kinda Hurt last night.
Ugly duckling.
Its the first time i hear it from the one you care about.
Its not like nobody wants me.
I am upset. hahaz. Jk.

I still remember doug telling me that his mum feels that i "pei bu shang" her son.
I mean come on.
I haven't pick on your son and you are picking on me.
Sighs.

Anyways happened to turn on the TV to watch this debate.

“Women marry men hoping they will change.
Men marry women hoping they will not.
So each is inevitably disappointed.” - Albert Einstein

Quite true eh.
Sometimes the more i look at people around me and my parents.
I just feel like being single forever or just fling around hahaz.
I can survive. Miss independent.
Marriage is so superficial. Its just a cert some says.
Tell me which woman doesn't want to find someone they love who loves them too.
Which gerl have never thought of how their ideal man,marriage or wedding will be like.
Ever wanted a grand wedding with all your friends there.
Ever wished the someone will appear.
But i've faced the fact already.

Be more practical.
Sherry feels the same way too.
Most guys just make me feel so disappointed. Disgusted.
Liked i said. Sex drives man.Love drives woman. Such a agony.

Loved the song Bang Bang by Lady Sovereign.
Now ssh and sshoo
Now who are you to try and rule my world
Now shut your mouth cause I'm talkin now, and if you don't like well.
Obsessed so I fling you around like discuss,hands off of my breast.


Oh ya. Dip-plus trip to the audio production house was cool.
Their work place was super cosy.
How i wished i could work in that environment someday too. So chill.hehez
They got their own music library and the dog in the poster is super cute.
Here it is:




Alrights yesterday we went to the Singapore indoor stadium for the TVSM field trip.
So tiring. Stressed. I still have no idea what i wanna propose for the opening ceremony.
The stage, camera floor plan. Sianz.
So many projects.
I could hardly breathe.

Rest well everyone. So many people are sick.
Take care baby.
Love ya.

P.S. Stop it babe.

Labels: Who are you to try to rule my world

Recital 2009 Photos!
It was a dope experience and of course its a dope concert yo.
Love the Ocrew performance. So cool woohoo.
We report at RP @ 9AM.
Zhiling and I arrived super early.


Anyway this is our pretty Zhiling.
She appeared in some commercials as well.
She's so attractive can! hahaz

The 20 Waackers!




I feel very proud to be one of them.
They are all good and experience dancers.
I think i am the worst there lolx.
But i learn from them. They are all really nice and upbeat people yo.

My instructor Rachel!

Just really wanna thank her for letting me be part of this production.
Never ever dream of being part of the o school recital.
Come to think of it i have never expect myself to be a real dancer till i enter poly.
She's my first official instructor?
Coz its the first official dance course i signed up for.
Waack it out!


Zhiling and my professional hairdresser- Samuel!
Samuel really made my hair looked pretty that day yeah.
Thank you! *flip hair* hahaz.
But that's before the concert coz after dancing my hair is in a mess!





My Zi-Lian photos.
I've got more worx.
But i shall upload later after my lunch i guess lolx.




Iris and Me!
She's a really sweet girl.
Soft spoken but when she dances she got lots of confidence!







The diva- Mei Chin




She's really friendly.
I remember she kept wanting me to pass my flu to her.
So that she don't need to go for her job attachment lolx.
She's working in the PR firm now.
Somehow all the people in these industry got the aura.


Our Reggae dancer AKA Waacker Samuel!

The most improved dancer and loyal dancer of Oschool 2009!
He can shake really well worx.
Reggae. Woohoo. Hard to not notice him can!





Mel! She's the one who help me put my fake eye lashes.
I don't have a clue how to put lo.hahaz


The Groovy Bao Xin!


She's my OPSS senior.
Used to admire them when they perform in school.
Who would have expect me to be on the same stage performing with them years after.


The beautiful Geraldine!


She's really beautiful. So chio .
Love her features. *Envy*
She's a sweet girl too.
I remember her wearing her snoopy dance shirt.
She looks good in almost everything.hehez.













The Sexaye Lady- Veron!

I remember the first time when she step into the studio i'm like woah.
She's so hot.
I saw her at Dance Xplosion the other day.
Somehow she caught my eye when she was dancing.
Her purple jacket lolx.








Yesh. Its me and Zhiling again.








Rachel! My ex- SDZ senior.
She always got her own style.
So princess. Love her curly hair.
She said i suit perms worx. Woohoo.
Shall i perm it like for permanent? Temptations. LOLX.



My Dear Shina!
Never failed to hug me when she sees me.
She and her" JAYNE!!" hahaz.
Cheers me up when i see her at the vetting.
There are so few SDZ people in the Recital.






Introducing the Street Jazz Lovers.
Brian, Shina and Jayne!*Laughs*
Oh wells. I have to admit that Brian is hot when he dance fredy's piece.
I think both of them suit the style yeah.
I love it too hopefully i can take up the course in these few months lo. See how.hehez.















Introducing our SDZ's Bao Jing!
OMG he improved a lot.
Was stunned when he solo in his piece.



Sexaye Lady!



Miss Jacqueline Ten!
She's a primary school teacher yeah.
I think she will be bullied by her students coz she's too kind!
Really soft spoken and looks cute with her locking boyfriend. So sweet.Aww~



Mel! My Waackin SHIFU.
I think all our batch of SDZ gerls started to waack coz of Mel.
Thanks for introducing us this unique style.
I think you are the one who inspire us to learn waackin when we see you dance.



Karen! Val's Friend.
I remember her coming down during our Wave's practice to assist Val in her tik-tok choreo.
She looks compatible with her boyfriend.
Foreign Bodies. Woohoo. hahaz.








Sexaye Brian.
Kept standing behind me so his face will look smaller. Aiyo! lolx.



Our Funky locker Sha!
Went to the train station with him and Jia yan.
He looked really shag.
Heard that they went clubbing the day before the concert lolx.




Cynthia Lim Shu Min!
My secondary school mate.
Another one who inspire me to start dancing.
Used to be watching Jamie and Cynthia perform as a audience.
Now i'm one of them hahaz.
Its amazing how one's life change and how dreams change as one grows up.



My Loved ones!
I was quite shock to see Daddy, Uncle and his girlfriend after the concert.
I thought Gor will come alone coz the tix were selling fast.
It was supposed to be a surprise and yeah i was indeed happy.
Its the first time daddy see me shine on stage worx hahaz. *smile*



Not forgetting the rest of the SDZ people who came to watch the concert.
I thought they won't be able to spot where i stand lor.
I didn't tell anyone where i will be standing hahaz.
But they manage to spot me yeah. *happie* lolx.


Siu Yun and Denise!
My dancemate i am closer with.
Always stick to them during practices and Waves rehearsals.
Love SiuYun's perms woohoo.




My SDZ senior- Vincent!
He is super tall lor.
Told him to bend down when he was taking this photo with me lolx.
Perfect height for a boyfriend. lolx.
He is int he army now i think..



The Female Locker- Jia Yan!
Its been quite long since i last saw her.
Love her expression when she lock hehez. So cute.








I'm hungry now i will upload more of my Zi-Lian Photos later.
I was kinda disappointed that some of my friends and my loved ones ain't there to watch me.
Continue to dance.
I wanna save money to go for more dance classes.

Anyways, its not a holiday at all.
5 projects to do within 3 weeks.
So much planning to do.
There's test as well when school reopen.

Tell me why i am in DMC. lolx.
Alrights enough of my complains.

P.S. Honey why are you calling me so late at night.

Labels: Recital 2009 Photos

Packing my stuffs for the concert tonight.
Will take lots of pictures tonight if possible. hahaz
Quite nervous.
As usual i only feel the excitement and the fear only at the moment i stand on stage hahaz.
I am super hungry now.
Gonna grab some food on the way hehez.
I know it will be a great concert.
I went to practice in school yesterday.

Time is running out. LOLX.
That's our tagline for the year before 2010 arrives i guess.
Xian Ling came up with it.

We were talking about our future and ideal marriage.
Too bored ont he bus trip to okto live.
Its funny that they say they can imagine me playing soft toys with my kids.
*laughs*

Kept psycho-ing Sherry to get a boyfriend.
But i do have to agree that sometimes when you look at how the hearts of the people around you broke, you will just feel more insecure and less confident.
Seems like it will fall apart any time.

Its amazing how someone could walk into your life so quickly.
Starting to think of them daily.
Thinking of what he is doing.
Starting to open up and wants to just be right where he is.
Beginning to feel that not all guys are jerks after all. *laughs* Just kidding.
Probably the first that made you feel comfortable to be your self in front of him.

Battlefield in love.
Cupids from above.

Baby don't worry.
You are my only.

Even when the sky is falling down.


P.S. Jia yous for Recital. You can do it yo!

Labels: Exclusive baby

It don't matter what i tried to do.

Labels: Every word that you say

Yo. I'm having PRMP lecture now.
Just rushed my assignment for gems.
Here's the test results.
Just a personality test hahaz.
Quite accurate lah. *flip hair* LOLX.


Your Personality Style Preview:

A loyal friend, yew zhen is patient and caring when attending to the needs of others. She is usually an even-paced individual who thrives in a peaceful, harmonious environment. She tends to be quite predictable, sticking with proven, reliable methods of dealing with situations rather than taking chances with a new, unproven approach.

Neat and orderly, others usually see yew zhen as practical. She needs adequate information to make decisions, and she will consider the pros and cons. She may be sensitive to criticism, and will tend to internalize her emotions. yew zhen likes to clarify expectations before undertaking new projects, and she will follow a logical process to gain successful results.

A warm, outgoing person, yew zhen enjoys having a high level of interaction with others. She usually finds the "silver lining" in a difficult situation, and typically enjoys the thrill of trying new things. She has a gift for influencing those around her and is viewed as an instinctive communicator. Others find yew zhen easy to approach and enjoy her easy, open rapport.

Because she cares about how others feel, yew zhen may feel uncomfortable making decisions that strongly affect others. She typically encourages others to be involved in the decision making process and prefers to work in a team role. Others tend to see yew zhen as agreeable and humble.

Labels: Gems Personality Test

Labels: Keeps getting in the way

A little over my head.

Stress.

My notes are blank.

Be strong.

I feel sorry.
I feel bad.

This is so crazy its so hard.
I just feel like blogging to destress.

But there's one thing that i do know.

I'll always be there for you.
I promised.
And i'll remember that.

Can't give up so easily.
Coz i'm Jayne!

Perharps.
The stubbon Jayne.
Jia yous.

Labels: Be strong

Keep on forgetting to forget about you.
I love that song.
Gosh i am still sleepy.
Tried to finish CDF last night but i really couldn't keep my eyes open.

Sam showed us a artistic film yesterday in class.
Felt like vommitting after that eh.
Sherry and i were kinda disappointed again.
Sex drives men.
Haiz the brutal rape scene etc. Made MJ depressed too lolx.

Slacked in the cut room with Elaine yesterday.
Damn i gotta focus.
I have to keep myself awake yo.

Stayed over at my dear's house.
The little boy boy was there eh.
He's super damn cute.
Clingy to gerls worx. hahaz.

Anyways i shall go for now.
Wanna get home to change and go to school.
Love ya.

Baby.

Labels: keep on forgetting to forget about you

Now its time to recharge.
Finally got some time to go on a date with my dear and darlings.
I swear i was really happy to see them.
I confessed to them.hahaz.
Just that they knew what i was afraid of.
I don't wanna go through the same experience again.

That's the reason of my status always being i am single but not available lolx.

Always thought i could just have a fling with some one else and just go date guys without falling in love but when you meet the right person any ordinary girl will become stupid.

I hope my cousin will come to realize there are many things out there that is more important than relationships.

Her future.
Her parents.
Her life that she wanna lead.
Live your life.

Oh ya min still feel that i haben recover my voice. Oh man. Its been like 2 weeks?! *cries*
I had my dinner with them and we slacked at Starbucks after that.
Xin's slippers snapped LOLX.
Had to dragged her feet to min's car. hahaz.

I went to the IT fair today.
Its super packed with people.
I felt safe there though.
Coz i've got someone there to help me clear the path worx. lolx.
Drank my favourite Mango Soda.
Ate my favourite waffle today except that its blueberry flavour. Not chocolate * sadded*

Min drove us home after that.
They are all happy for me yet they understand how difficult it is for me to accept it.
Miss independent.
Anyway here's some photos we took..


Lights Camera Action!



















I look so weird. I was staring elsewhere hahaz.




















Yawns.
Its time to go.
Good night everyone.
Listen to your heart.

Labels: Don't wanna try no more

So cold..

Having lecture now. Multi-tasking now.

1) Chatting with my darlings
2) Watching the video Lum is screening for us @ lecture.
3) Texting my darling
4) Vandalising Xina Ling's lecture notes
5) Yawning


LOLX.

So many people are sick now.
Oh oh. Must have been me yo.
Spreading my disease around hahaz. oops. Sorry babes.

Sherry is still coughing beside me now.
Take care lah.
Eat laksa somemore. Eat chocolate somemore. Aiyoyo!
Actually i also lahz. hahaz.
Me and my addictive M&N chocolates.

Hahaz.

Shivering now even though i have my jacket on. *gritting my teeth*

TVSM later.
Sianz.

Alrights gotta go yo.
Just bored so decided to post something here.
Hehez.
Take care baby.

Love ya.

Labels: Oops i did it again

Finally break down.
The stress and my forever tired life.

Never even shed a tear when i fail my tests in secondary school.

Its difficult to see me cry and down.
I just broke that impression last night.

So many things going on.
Always trying to hold back my tears.
Telling myself it will be okay soon.

The stage i longed to be. Spotlight. People cheering for you. Your show.

I wanna remember that feeling..

And i am no longer in comperes..
Still remember the first time when Aaron told me online that i got in.

Getting into dance and comperes its like a miracle to me.

I do love the people there. Smile..
Hate myself for not being able to join in the fun and trainings.

But somehow i do agree that i prefer the feeling dancing on stage.
Its the only time i feel confident.. i look different they say. Maybe.

Its always my wish for all my loved ones to be at the audience seat looking at me shine on stage.
No matter how many good comments i received from others at waves concert or wad-ever.
Its not what i want.

I just want the people i love to be there.. to watch me.
For that 3mins.. for the effort I've put in.

Still remember my first performance in secondary school.
remember when the one who fail me at the dance audition coming up to ask me why i didn't join dance after that.
It reminds me of why i started dancing.

Remember when i passed SDZ's audition.
The comments ppl gave me even before i went for the audition.
Memories.

Its not just moving my body.
It do mean something to me.

Be confident gerl.

To a lot of people i look like a wild,cheerful and bubbly gerl.
Even remember people saying i am lying when is say i got low confidence.
But i believe my best friends will know what kinda gerl i am.

Just wanna say sorry to Ning and the rest.

I hope my cousin will be fine soon.
I really wished i could help her but she gotta stand up on her own.

The first person i thought of was you.
Thanks for being there.

To Aaron, you are always my gor.
Don't worry i am fine already.

I've got a performance today at auditorium.
I've got recital practice at night.
I need to smile on stage again.
Rebirth.

Jia yous!
Sexaye perms today again?
Maybe.

Lots of love babe.

P.S. It grew from a simple crush.

Labels: Even if the sky is falling down

If cupids got a gun then he's shooting..
On my heart,you've burned
I need you to need me.

There isn't a single day i am not tired.
I wished i could have more than 24 hours a day.
Its never enough.
There's so many things i have to do and i gotta do.

Recital vetting on Sunday.
I felt guilty for skipping twice.
I was sick for the last two weeks to be exact..
Sorry Rachel.
I really wanna be in the item. Not that i wanna skip silently.

Haiz.

I hope i can recover soon.
Still cough a little.

I hope Sherry Ong recovers too!!! hahaz. Take care lah gerl.
Always hit herself hard when she got headache.
Pain eh! lolx.
*pray* for you. hahaz.

Haben buy costumes for recital.
Didn't have time and i need to go look around.

A lot of things happen this week.

Catched up with my darling xin.
Min wasn't there huh?! hahaz. Miss you all like i always do.
Super happy last night.

Coz..LINH IS COMINB BACK.
She will be back next year though.
But i shall wait patiently for her.
I am so going to fetch her.
Finally FSOME can reunite.

Sometimes its only when you are far apart from someone that you realize how much you loved them.

I really hope that i can be with my cousin all the time to make sure she will be fine.
But i got other commitments and somehow i shall really learn to give up some stuffs when its time.

Went to Tampines with xin on Sunday after work.
Ate KFC and xin claimed her Monopoly instant win thingy.
Then we headed to Bottle Tree Park. Our memories gerl.
My study mate.

Somehow i still remember we four dance there lor.
Some random dance rights.
I wasn't a dancer back then.
Just loved to dance but didn't officially learn etc.

Friends are the ones who will always be there for me.
Thats what i believe and i know we went through a lot of things together.
Perharps thats our destiny to be TOGETHER. hahaz.
Love you all.
From the bottom of my heart..


I MISS YOU ALL LAH!! hahaz.

Labels: I'm numb

看不清 我也不想看清,我的淚流在心裡 學會放棄

Yo! I'm so hungry now. Aww~

I can't believe i actually came for the finance tutorial.
Gotta come for the TVSM test.

I am not prepared haiz.
Yesterday's paper was alright. PRMP. I shall say its manageable hehez.

Really in love with my xiang xiang's show and you're beautiful.
Waiting for the next episode..

Was talking to Elaine yesterday coz sherry and xian ling were all sick.
Oops. I felt guilty for spreading my disease to them hahahaz.

Sometimes i just hope i am not that busy girl.
Time is not on my side.

I feel sorry.

Labels: Tik tok on the clock

A failing love is like desperately hanging on to something precious; not wanting to give up, but your hands feel the pain. And, when you finally let go, you're free from any pain, but your hands are empty


I'm still sick. Damn.
Just wanna recover soon.
Having a test later and i am still stuck at it.
Hopefully it will be a easy paper.
I'm just so sick and tired of this world.
Maybe i should just die.. hahaz. JK

Some times i wonder what i really want in my life..
Perharps.

I'm just so not confident.

Afraid.

Move on.

Labels: Let it go

Escapade Girls Hip Hop Performance


Yo. I am officially sick for a week.
Took leave and didn't go for work this whole week.
Aww~
Last night we tried out the stage @ concourse at 7pm.
The stage is super weird coz its more like a model run way and we all squeezed at the front stage lolx.
We spent our time in the room to put on our make-up and do our hair.
Stella was our official hair stylist last night.
Thanks gerl! She's really professional.

Anyway the performance was great quite neat hehez.
Had a number of people sms-ing me to compliment our dance hehez.

The organisers provided mini bus to drive all of us home.
They even had volunteers sending us right to our door steps.
They practically watch me till i enter my door steps lolx.
Good service yo.
I just pity them to get off and in the bus all the time in the middle of the night hahaz.

Took a lot of photos with siu yun's camera to make up for the pathetic no. of photos i took during Waves lolx. Finally got to take photo with them. *smile*

Enjoy looking at my spastic faces yo. *laughs*


Cam- Whoring Session With Jayne Toh Begins..

Labels: Baby steps